The Unexpected
Mar. 2nd, 2017 10:47 pmBittersweet life, it is.
This is bugging me lately. 😩 I've been always into a situation in which I need to decide whether to choose between "my own goal and my loved-ones' goal". Well one thing is for sure, we have contrasting opinions. In every situation in which I encounter this, I have always thought of wanting to say 'no'. However, I can't just say it. I've came into a realization that maybe I just need to follow what they want so that it'll easily be over. Part of me also says that it is a good choice to stick with their opinion since they will be happy with what I'll achieve and I also think that maybe my 'goal' will soon have a limit. BUT I'M WRONG! 😧😩😰😞
It's harder than what I have imagined. Especially when you do the things you don't want to do and then out of nowhere you'll just ask yourself "Why did I take this?" Or "I can't see the point of doing this." Or even "I can't see my future with this." 😠It's hard REALLY HARD.
This sucks seriously!!
I've been having these feelings of regret and doubt inside me for quite a long time already. I don't know how to handle this. I've been having a lot of insecurities about myself. As far as i want to not compare myself with others, i can't seriously do it! I've been crying fountain of tears everyday without knowing the specific reason. I feel so useless. Whenever i see people doing the things they want to do, i always ask myself "why?" Why can't i be like them? Why can't i stand for what i really want to do? Why can they do those kind of things and why can't i? I've been so emotional about things that shouldn't be taken seriously. Urg.
Sorry guys, but i don't know where can i let this out~ I'm tired of crying :'(
The neativity outpays the positivity! People see me as the "happy-go-lucky" and the "cheerful" person but i'm nothing near to it. The fact that i've been lying to myself a couple of times saying "of course, i love it", "yes" - is this what i really want? Why? Just why?
Hi, another random thought~ It's amazing how people can be so selfish sometimes. ;_; Considering the fact that they are not the ones who made the great effort in producing those results. Anyway, what are these people thinking? Are they doing this for fame? To help others? Or just for their own self satisfaction? Tsk. Yes, i'm talking about these rule breakers.
Think before you act. Consider the circumstances of your actions, bro! These subbers are risking their lives just to provide us the best translations. Thus, we are bound to follow their conditions. We download their subs, we watch videos using their subs and much more. Come to think of it, these subbers are sharing their subs without asking anything in return just to FOLLOW THEIR RULES. Is that even difficult? =_= Come on!