Depressed

[osjmnkamss]

This sucks seriously!!
I've been having these feelings of regret and doubt inside me for quite a long time already. I don't know how to handle this. I've been having a lot of insecurities about myself. As far as i want to not compare myself with others, i can't seriously do it! I've been crying fountain of tears everyday without knowing the specific reason. I feel so useless. Whenever i see people doing the things they want to do, i always ask myself "why?" Why can't i be like them? Why can't i stand for what i really want to do? Why can they do those kind of things and why can't i? I've been so emotional about things that shouldn't be taken seriously. Urg.

Sorry guys, but i don't know where can i let this out~ I'm tired of crying :'(

The neativity outpays the positivity! People see me as the "happy-go-lucky" and the "cheerful" person but i'm nothing near to it. The fact that i've been lying to myself a couple of times saying "of course, i love it", "yes" - is this what i really want? Why? Just why?

Comments

[riikushi.livejournal.com]

i think it's totally normal for you to have such thinking, the truth is the things is beyond your controlled but there some chemical stuff in your brain that make you felt like that, so it really is normal.

I passed it too, and I think everyone on earth too, you're not alone dear, that the first thing that you have to remember ^^

and I thought it was more than just ok to let your tears out, i always think better let them out then just put it inside of you, if you don't know the reason then just made the reason by your own, (i usually read sad story or heard sad songs) and the cried your heart out, until you felt you had no more tears left. and let some endorphine get into you (for me it was and always be chocolate) do things that you like and get the happiness fill the empty spot inside of you, and you can reply the thins over and over (i did it, cried in the night, eating chocolate in the day, and cried again in the night for days)

and no you're not useless, did you remember you helped me edited my fic before? I felt really grateful for that <3 if it wasn't for you then the fic will be stored forever in my pc.

my brother always said it is ok to fall down, as long as you remember to get up ^^ #hugs

[osjmnkamss.livejournal.com]

/hugs back/ i think, in time, I'll be able to do much of what i want to do more. :* Just as what you've said, crying does really help~ :) I was crying my heart out last night and it made me fell into a good night sleep. Sometimes, crying is just the best way to recover from a lot of negative circumstances. :)

"it's ok to fall down,a s long as you remember to get up."
i like this statement so much~ Thanks!